blue car goes straight
white car turns left
red light turns green
cars surge forward
surge toward
me.
tonight i sit behind a window and watch
eyes stare and mind wanders
i wonder where everyone is going
tonight
wonder where i am going
tonight?
soon i will gather my things
and walk
i will walk five minutes into darkness
five minutes from this lighted land of coffee
five minutes to my new
home.
the word lingers
the word lives
the word is wonderful and powerful and yet still so
awful
awkward
unrealized.
tonight i will walk home
home where i am loved
home where i am safe
home.
tonight i will lock a door behind me
wash my face
brush my teeth
pee
lie in a bed
sleep with blankets to warm me
sleep with fans to cool me as i
dream.
tonight my body will rest
my soul will rest
i will rest
— but what about the rest?
what about the homeless of house
the homeless of heart?
which home would they rather have
tonight?
which home would i rather have
tonight?
tonight i sit in a coffee shop
five minutes from home
lit by lamps
lit by laughter
lit by glowing screens
warmed by
love.
soon i will leave this warmth
walk into the cool dark
walk five minutes to home
and sleep
and rest
and dream
and wonder
wonder what Home is like
why Home is still so far
so very far.
even after all of this.
far
from you and me and he and she
and all the
rest.
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